my oh my

[owly]

it's been a strange week or so. i'm coming to terms with the whole double knee replacement thing. i am so very nervous about the prospect. i know 80 year old wimmin have these surgeries every day, but fuck, i am 31 and shitscared. last night when my right knee went out, i kind of came to this point, a moment to remember.

from now until the day i have new, healed knees, i will be on crutches.

i think i am slowly making my peace with that. today was spent half in a wheelchair, half on crutches. i prefer the crutches, definately. you can get further by yourself. i am nervous about the way it will feel when i have something man made plastered and screwed into my thighbones. and i am nervous about how it will feel when they eventually wear out. they last 15 years if you are lucky, i hear.

oh my goodness. life is actually really happening to me. it's mental (system survivor).

i am so happy i found ouch.

Comments

[joannaknits.livejournal.com]

good luck, lady.

[ace-combs.livejournal.com]

indeed: mom had both hips replaced, as a result of her struggle with arthritis, at ages 67 and 68, respectively. came though it fine. hang in there; you can do it.