an open letter to men
Apr. 4th, 2006 05:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
owlydear men of the world,
what small amount of respect i had for you as a gender has been erased.
it's not that all of you are fucked, because some of you aren't. i feel very strongly that there are some decent beautiful men around. these men, for example would rise to the challenge of defending what needs defending when necessary:
- the two julians
- my da
- charles
- rhodamine
- qq
- chris the mad scientist
- robbie thorpe
- paul g
- mick turner
- leigh wildaughter
- jon michell
(writing a list is redundant. needless to say there are boys who are decent. they are a minority.)
but that's all i can think of right now.
you see, i went to the hospital today, got diagnosed with two new conditions and have a hospital stay to look forward to in the next two months. on the tram on the way home, i was abused verbally by three men firstly because i am fat and secondly because i am female. i am a stupid ugly obese big fat bitch. they pushed me into the side of the tram. i found my seat and watched them. i was pissed. then they began to yell at a man from either india or sri lanka. this really got me. i yelled from the top of my lungs that I WOULD NOT SHUT UP AND THEY SHOULD STOP BEING SO FUCKING RACIST. they told me to shut up, that it was a private conversation (no, it wasn't anymore, not when you are taunting another passenger on public transport). so i faught with them and yelled and eventually it got to a point where they were getting off the tram, continually yelling the same abuse at me over and over (are they too fucking brainless to find something different to tease me about? i mean, duh, yes, i am a fat woman, it's not like nobody else knows this). the last of the three came close to me and i punched my hand in his face, but instead of hitting him in the nose, i gave him the finger. i don't know why i didn't bash him in the head. i should have. next time i will. and if i get arrested, i don't give a flying fuck. i will tell those fucking police about every last thing that men have done to me to abuse me. then they can try and convince me that i shouldn't hit men. it won't happen.
while all this was happening, they were grabbing at young wimmin's bums and being disgusting. all the men surrounding them didn't say a fucking word.
MEN: WHAT THE FUCK IS SO WRONG WITH YOU THAT YOU WON'T FUCKING STAND UP AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN GENDER'S OFFENSIVE BEHAVIOUR?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to shut up?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to stop being racist?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to stop abusing wimmin?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to not abuse a womyn because she weighs more than he does?
why the fuck did you all just sit there silently and watch what happened without doing or saying anything?
why the fuck won't you take responsibility for your gender's mistakes?
and i don't get why when i told a girl that the men behind her kept grabbing at her arse, she simply said "oh well, what can i do? nothing."
after they left the tram, i was shaking and crying. i tried to keep it to myself, but people noticed. the dude they were racially taunting came and shook my hand, sat opposite me and thanked me. he said it happens all the time. i told him i don't understand why people don't give a shit enough to step in and make people accountable. then a nice girl tapped me on the arm and offered me toilet paper with frogs on it, so i could dry my tears. "it's clean" she said, kindly.
i hate you, men. i really hate you. you disgust me in your weakness. i love the men i have named above, and a few others who i know would stand beside me in the line of fire for what we believe in, but everyone else? no. as a species, you're weak and pathetic. you'll never learn. and i have no respect for you today.
with tears of anger,
alana x
what small amount of respect i had for you as a gender has been erased.
it's not that all of you are fucked, because some of you aren't. i feel very strongly that there are some decent beautiful men around. these men, for example would rise to the challenge of defending what needs defending when necessary:
- my da
- charles
- rhodamine
- chris the mad scientist
- robbie thorpe
- paul g
- mick turner
- leigh wildaughter
- jon michell
but that's all i can think of right now.
you see, i went to the hospital today, got diagnosed with two new conditions and have a hospital stay to look forward to in the next two months. on the tram on the way home, i was abused verbally by three men firstly because i am fat and secondly because i am female. i am a stupid ugly obese big fat bitch. they pushed me into the side of the tram. i found my seat and watched them. i was pissed. then they began to yell at a man from either india or sri lanka. this really got me. i yelled from the top of my lungs that I WOULD NOT SHUT UP AND THEY SHOULD STOP BEING SO FUCKING RACIST. they told me to shut up, that it was a private conversation (no, it wasn't anymore, not when you are taunting another passenger on public transport). so i faught with them and yelled and eventually it got to a point where they were getting off the tram, continually yelling the same abuse at me over and over (are they too fucking brainless to find something different to tease me about? i mean, duh, yes, i am a fat woman, it's not like nobody else knows this). the last of the three came close to me and i punched my hand in his face, but instead of hitting him in the nose, i gave him the finger. i don't know why i didn't bash him in the head. i should have. next time i will. and if i get arrested, i don't give a flying fuck. i will tell those fucking police about every last thing that men have done to me to abuse me. then they can try and convince me that i shouldn't hit men. it won't happen.
while all this was happening, they were grabbing at young wimmin's bums and being disgusting. all the men surrounding them didn't say a fucking word.
MEN: WHAT THE FUCK IS SO WRONG WITH YOU THAT YOU WON'T FUCKING STAND UP AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN GENDER'S OFFENSIVE BEHAVIOUR?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to shut up?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to stop being racist?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to stop abusing wimmin?
why the fuck didn't any men tell these 20 year olds to not abuse a womyn because she weighs more than he does?
why the fuck did you all just sit there silently and watch what happened without doing or saying anything?
why the fuck won't you take responsibility for your gender's mistakes?
and i don't get why when i told a girl that the men behind her kept grabbing at her arse, she simply said "oh well, what can i do? nothing."
after they left the tram, i was shaking and crying. i tried to keep it to myself, but people noticed. the dude they were racially taunting came and shook my hand, sat opposite me and thanked me. he said it happens all the time. i told him i don't understand why people don't give a shit enough to step in and make people accountable. then a nice girl tapped me on the arm and offered me toilet paper with frogs on it, so i could dry my tears. "it's clean" she said, kindly.
i hate you, men. i really hate you. you disgust me in your weakness. i love the men i have named above, and a few others who i know would stand beside me in the line of fire for what we believe in, but everyone else? no. as a species, you're weak and pathetic. you'll never learn. and i have no respect for you today.
with tears of anger,
alana x
